Thursday, January 21, 2010

What Am I Afraid Of?

This is such a long day. There is something that I want to write about but I cannot because it is quite sensitive. Should I pour my heart out here or should i just let this day pass ignoring what had happened today? I guess i should keep mum.

Why in the world kasi I believe that not what everything you want to say should be said. There are things that are better left unsaid. There are also things that you must think about hundred times before you say. There are also things that need significance check or damage check before you say, unless otherwise you want to be sorry for the irreversible damage caused by such thoughtless words. There are also things that you need to keep to yourself. Some things need to be forgotten because after a second thought, they are just nonsense or insignificant...

Ah, I know. I won't talk, or in this case, I won't write. Afterall, what is in my heart right now is not good; therefore not worth sharing.

More talks, more mistakes, ika nga.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

A Baby Boy Named Sky




After a long hibernation, my brains have to work again and produce some good thoughts and document some good memories.

October 31st of 2009 was supposed to be the birthday of Baby Sky Zyn. But because some things didn't go the way I wanted them to be, Baby Sky was born 4 days earlier.

Early October, my OB Gyne and I were scheduling for my 3rd CS and BTL. Since he could only attend to me on weekends, he suggested that we would have it done in October 17 or 24. But I insisted to have it on the 31st because October 17 was way too early while October 24 would be Myka's first ballet recital and I did not want to miss it.

Passed October 24, I was feeling that the baby could not wait for his schedule. My tummy was aching almost everytime and it felt very heavy. I texted Dr. Agad, my OB-Gyne, of how I was feeling and he told me to take Duvadilan 3x a day. Afraid to take more medicines, I did not obey him. And since he mentioned that in cases where he could not attend to his patients, Dr. Burgos would be there for him, we came to see Dr. Burgos.

When Dr. Burgos examined me, she concluded that I was already in labor while I was in her clinic. She advised me to go to the hospital right after the check up. I asked her if there was any way to postpone because I did not like 27 as a number and I wanted Dr. Agad to do the surgery. She was so patient in persuading me that the baby could not wait until tomorrow since I mentioned to her that no fetal movement had been felt that day.

When we came home, I felt that the pain was getting more untolerable. I could not wait for the 28th. I bathed and packed my things. I kissed Baby Ax, who was sick and was taking antibiotics that time, goodbye. I also had to request Nanay, who was herself sick, to take care of Baby Ax. while I would be away. Papi and Ate Myka brought me to the hospital at 8 pm. Because of the circumstances, I had to convince myself that I was so ready then. I personally called Dr. Elago, my pediatrician-friend, to come to the hospital as she would be the one to catch my baby. I kept on texting my friends to solicit prayers. I prayed myself. While waiting idly at the ER, Ate Myka and I were busy with photoshoots. Came the nurse, advising me to be ready for the OR at 9pm. I requested to see my room first before I'd proceed to the OR.

Came 10pm, I had to say goodbye to Papi and Ate Myka and Taweng. I was so relaxed and cooperative. But deep inside, I was so scared thinking that I might not make it or something bad could get in along the way. I was entertaining a thought that I might have a cardiac arrest and the like in the course of the delivery.

At the entrance to the OR, we had photoshoots again. I gave the camera to one of the nurses for more documentation inside. Dr. Cancel came in and introduced himself. The most fearful part of the surgery came-the administration of the aenesthesia. As expected from Dr. Cancel, he made it without a stress on my part. When Dr. Elago and Dr. Burgos came, I affirmed myself that nothing would go wrong.Then, i fell half asleep. I heard them pray. I heard them talk. I heard Dr. Cancel calling me, I heard myself saying my discomfort and I saw my baby.

The baby was crying. He was so red. They let his cheek came close to mine. I was happy. Thank God, you made me and the baby live. Thank God, you did not allow anything untoward happen to us. I survived and I THANK GOD.

Baby Zyn was born at 11pm of October 27, 2009. Then came the problem of naming him. Aside from Zyn which came from Zynovia, we have to give him another short name. Upon browsing my inbox, I saw one of the oldest texts where Tabong suggested that the baby's name be Honey Sky. Papi and I thought that Sky is cute. So that's where we got Sky Zyn.

Papi's sisters wanted Baby Zyn to be Jick Daniel III because he was the only boy among the Daniels. But Papi would not want it, neither would I. Sorry sisters, but we don't find it pleasing or cute.

Surprise however, bacause Baby Zyn's nickname is Baby Jickoi. We named him that because he looks like his Papi. And the skin color is so junior. I just love him dark. He is so masculine.

Baby Jickoi, even if you don't have Papi's given name, you are truely his junior.. We love you very much. (giggles)






Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Baby Sister's First for January 2009

Baby's first yayay. Case: Cough. But we wondered why she was throwing up. Lesson: Erythromycin intake sans food is really bad to your tummy.





First play with stones at Tita Novy's house. She loves throwing away at no direction. Bato bato sa langit, ang matamaan hwag magagalit.






Baby's first Oval Plaza exposure on one sunday afternoon.







Baby's first steps. I knew she could do it. Everyone, except Lola Lilia, has confidence in her.






Baby's first toothbrush: Pigeon from Watsons, SM, Davao. Nanay helps her. She loves swallowing the paste. yummy...






Baby's first tutorial with Big Sister MP







Baby's first gig with Ate MP